Just when I think I am getting better I have a moment when everything feels different. It's like climbing a hill and then falling down and climbing again. My thoughts are all over the place; quite chaotic and I am having difficulty finding a quiet place in my head today. Usually, I can find this, despite the cacophony but just this moment, my thoughts are scattered between here and there and everywhere else. I feel afraid, thinking my brain will career of the edge and over into space. I know it won't but just some moments, the tiredness seeps in between the spaces and covers up my quiet.