the Icarus project was quite a find. I've dealt with mental illness since a teen, withdrawing after nights out drinking and carrying on. I tried suicide by walking in traffic and wound up with only a broken leg and humiliated. 18yrs later I feel as hopeless and think I've found a way to successfully pull it off. Being on SSDI has been a 2edged sword, consistent money, but, not enough. I moved across country and feel like a misunderstood alien. Impossible to make friendships. Of no use to the community or even alcoholics anonymous, where I spent so much time these past 14yrs...the worlds moved on