this is a gift
Submitted by barefootmutant on Thu, 11/13/2008 - 5:29pmI truly believe that this illness is a gift, That the chemical inbalances that rule the mindset of the diagnosed provides us with a way to overcome and demolish barriers that this world has succumb to. We feel so much with so little instigation. Emotions become our blood, and great thoughts become our reality, filling us with either joy or pain that the majority of the population won't ever get to experience. We've been gifted with a direct path to the edge of the world, if were willing to follow it. I believe this illness comes with a purpose, regardless of what its labeled. I don't deny the doctors their definitions, I accept their translation of how the imbalance relates to society and the individual,but I believe that their is a meanign to this beyond prescriptions...I think it all comes down to sacrifice for the greater good, even if the greater good is greater personal understanding of truth, of the meaning of existence, and a way to change the world on a caffine instigated whim...and for this, I relish in the imeasurable joy and intolerable pain, because in the past 12 years of my diagnosis, trusting my "illness" has only lead me to great things if im willing to sacrifice for them and not worry about how society will interperate this. I believe that the extremes we hold naturally within ourselves are answers in and of themselves that we are obligated to explore and return to the reality of the rest of the world...because in these extremes we cannot be held back by the tyranny of what this world is and has become and promises for our future. walls on the ground hold us only for short whiles, and where the rest of humanity will never know the pain we feel at being kept there, they will never know the joy of when our short flight becomes reality. I think we should give it to them, just as we should never stop exploring it for ourselves.