I have dated a few, and they have told me that it didn't matter.  And, I guess it really didn't.  Why then, is it, that I somehow manage to screw up every one of these 'ideal' relationships I am in.  I guess in the long run I am destined to be single, which is a life that I hate.  Do I take these girls 'leniency' for granted?  No I don't.  I guess there are very few who are strong enough to deal with the potential problems......which honestly haven't existed in the longest time.....stability is something I have strived for and achieved....but, there are times when I wish I just threw my medicine away and lived by the seat of my pants...but I don't, I take my meds religiously...and the simple fact of the matter is, as of yet, I have gained nothing