I suffered what is termed as "MANIA", but through the whole while I would not abandon my "SOURCE", my "God" if you will. The realization that all that was happening to me was a requirement for me to deal with my "EGO".
I was truly going through what I've found to be called a "Spiritual Crisis". I have often felt like an outsider, like I don't belong here - granted, I have always known that I am more spiritually minded than religious.

My mania brought with it times, places and characters required for me to shatter my E.G.O. (Everyones' Got One). Once the EGO shattered the authentic living soul began to breathe and gain strength and vitality. I actually felt and started to live with a different outlook (born again if you will). I was now in touch with an inner awareness of being.

The "MANIA" was the catalyst required for me to really experience my own conciousness. This was like a crowning achievement for me - I had fused with the "ORDER OF UNIVERSE". My soul turned into a drop in what I call the Ocean of Breath, but for me - my God is before all things for "IN" God all things hold together.
The God I subscribe to is a spirit - that being the "SPIRIT OF LOVE". It is this spirit which I understand to drive my will, but for some reason the WORLD will not have it.
The world does not understand it, so it reacts with fear and it opts to fix the living soul by medicating it out of existence. Friends and family turn into strangers before your eyes as they side with the world trying to help you.
The journey unfortunately can only be taken by the self and all alone and the difficulty is recognizing it for what it is - "EVOLUTION". The evolution of the living soul that has been oppressed/suppressed by the EGO.
Once conciousness has been ignited the living soul must battle the EGO, conciousness becomes like a Battle AXE made of gold in the hand of the living soul who is destined for "TRUTH".
Freedom of conciousness, you would think is common sense, but in the world, I've only encountered this sense to be uncommon.
Prior to the "MANIA", I was asleep and realized that I carried around a lot of weight on my shoulders.
Upon the rising of the living soul and it's trials and tribulations, I have finally arrived to a state which should have always been there - resting in peace.
I've been asked - Are you a believer? or Do you believe in God? My take on that is that in my journey, I've gone beyond belief and ecountered the TRUTH. To believe is one thing, but knowing is what really made the difference in my journey. God permeates all things under the sun and thensome.
My take as to why I sufferered Mania and other related mind issues is because knowingly or not I had oppressed/suppresssed my living soul to such a level where it's survival transformed it into my personal stormbringer in order to assit with the cleansing of the EGO.
In other words the authentic MAN/WOMAN is now come into his own.

I've two children a male and female and it was them that showed me much in the way of wisdom. I accept the fact that I'm a "MAN" who knows his place in the "ORDER OF THE UNIVERSE".
MANKIND has been issued authority from God to pro-create, to subdue the EARTH and to have Dominion over every linving thing on it.
The traits of this Mankind (MAN/WOMAN) is that they are good and blessed.

The world would have you believe that you are a NAME, NUMBER or some other thing of fiction, but the reality is that you can truly only prove that you are a "MAN or WOMAN" that inhabits the land.

We got to get out of the land "OZ".
We are sleeping in the magical poppy fields - and nicely sedated at that.
Dorothy was right, "We are not in Kansas anymore".
A paper with a word Diploma does not make you brilliant, Mr. Strawman.
A clock inside of you does not mean you have a Heart, Mr. Tinman.
A medal pinned of your chest does not make you brave, Mr. Lion.
Man's best friend, a little dog called "TOTO" figures everything out.

My dream and my GOAL is not far fetched or un-realistic.
All I want to do is witness "THE SON OF MAN COME INTO HIS GLORY".
This goes for your children as well as mine, but first we must "REMEMBER WHO WE ARE."

Genesis Chapter 1 - contains the six of the seven days of creation.
The seventh day is the day of rest - to "DAY" is actually an action and should be actioned by "MANKIND". Today is that DAY God has made for "US", let us rejoice and be glad in it. Today and everyday is the seventh day of creation. The six days of creation is to me " The constitution for Mankind" and am just waiting for all my brothers and sisters to come to the same realization. In these six days, if you read between the lines you will find the essence of freedom.

The "GOLDEN RULE" is the only thing a living soul with conciousness needs to subscribe to. Where there is "LOVE" there is no LAW, and where there is LAW there is no LOVE.

Since all man made institutions end their oaths with "So Help Me God".

THE ECHO OF AN APPOINTED TIME IS HERE!

Each of us must challenge all fiction as it asserts and claims itself to being a living thing. Fiction must submit to the "ORDER IN THE UNIVERSE" and that being "MAN" having "DOMINION" over every living thing on earth.
This authority has been granted to "MAN" from God - The Creator.
It is time to OWN UP up and remember who you are.
"MANKIND" was MADE in God's IMAGE and God's LIKENESS.
God's name is "I AM", but the EGO has been riding it without respect or consequence.

The phrase "BE STILL, AND KNOW, "I AM", God" in it's proper context is my magic pill. It's my constant thought - and it resets me not a thing but his creation which then after stillness , humbles me to act, think and speak accordingly.

Who is my judge? Who is my accuser? The only one I can think of is the only Devil and Liar that I have ever know and that being my own EGO.
"I AM" not a name, number, nationality or skin colour, I am just a "MAN".

I do not know everything, but I know what I need to know.
I hope you find what I share a little interesting.

Friends call me "PAGE", please just be open to all that I can possibly be -
a message, a messenger or perhaps just a "GENTLE SMILE with PURE INTENTION".

"MAN know thyself because applied knowledge is true power." - modified quote by Page

enjoy: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nq9udFmsNO0
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