my hell week of papers and classes is over. now its a mad dash to finals...which are papers handwritten from memory in class. 
 
why are people considered mad for believing in truths about human nature and the ills of society? the people in my literature class give me the "seriously?" look any time I mention that the dystopia books we read have many many themes in common with our culture today. how come the crazy people aren't the ones thumping Bibles waiting for the apocoylpse? its rather unfair. I at least uphold legitimate facts about the world, things like global warming and the laws that are crushing dreams and hopes for a better future (like FL Gov. Rick Scott's legislation). Fahrenheit 451 was talking about US, yes, us, we who live past 1990 in a world of technology that fills the holes of true human love and compassion. The world where everyone takes drugs like they're like snack foods.  Yet we're forced to be on these damn machines by our jobs, our schools, our family who moved across the country, and by our own desire. 
 
I'm in dire need of alternatives to this mistake we call modern life and civilization. Yeah, shits bad in other places but somewhere has to be doing something better than the U.S. I'm not buying the bullshit anymore. College is bullshit. The school tells me it costs $19,500 a year for tuition and fees, books, and living expenses. They only give me $10,500 a year and most of that is loans. Having anxiety over everything makes it incomprehensible for me to get a job and be in school, I can barely handle school and house work. This just doesn't make sense any more. USF steals the joy from my life and I've let it happen. I wouldn't let anyone else pull this shit on me so why let an institution do it? They lie about it opening doors after graduation, how many college grads do you know who work for low wages and long hours in jobs that don't even have health benifits? I know plenty, and it scares the fuck out of me. 
 
in debt for a decade just because I want to know and understand the history and literature of this fucking country. It's worthless! They don't really want us to know the history anyways, then our eyes will be open to the possibility of revolution against the Slave Wage Masters. History is empowering, a bit too empowering.