I'm beginning to wonder if I'm outgrowing my partner. And again I feel betrayed by "happily ever after".

It seems I always excell to a higher understanding and she's fine floudering around in the familiar. And she's immature when it comes to committing to her studies, or having to do any amount of course work. I often hear complaints about what the teacher expects of her, and why she doesn't want to do it. If we all did things her way, well they'd be half assed or low quality due to procrastination.

She takes things for granted. She doesn't appreciate what she has. She puts too much of herself into this relationship. My moods decide hers. She gets clingy and emotional when I don't respond immediately, and I think she lies to me about her feelings.

I get embarrased when we go to the store because she skips around and wants disgusting food like ho ho's. And she's fighting me about not getting a microwave. I do not want a microwave because is it really that healthy to radiate food pre-consumption? Not only that she eats like shit and then complains about being over weight.

WTF!??!? She isn't very pro-active in taking direction of her life. She's just wants it handed to her. She may say otherwise but her actions speak louder then words.

And she wanted me to start journaling in a notebook again like I did in  high school. So I started. Then I caught her reading it in front of me. I told her to stop, and she still kept reading it.

I love her, I really do. But I don't think we're on the same intellectual path, let alone maturing at the same rate. It's like I have another kid to look after. Fuck.