Today was a waste. All I did was sleep and I'm still tired. I don't know. Someone gave me a pity root-beer float. THE FUCK, man. How the mighty have fuckin' fallen and all that shit. FUCK.

I'm really angry. at myself. at the world. at god. at the stupid bastard who gave me A FUCKING ROOT BEER FLOAT BECUASE HE THOUGHT I LOOKED LONELY. NO SHIT, SHERLOCK. I'M OLDER THAN EVERYBODY HERE AND I HATE YOU ALL.

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fuck, I was so close to suicide today for a while...i'm such an idiot...all I have is luck.