i need to watch this movie a friend did so i can write him finally. it has been too long. well i went a year without being able to focus much on movies. he used to be my roommate in venice beach, california. we lived in a wild house called the karma vortex and things did fall apart there. it was basically turning into a squat when we were behind on rent. it got out of hand.

i have pms on top of the other pain...then the vicodin blocks me up. then i hardly slept last night and very little today. i had to miss important appointments too. j  is asleep. i need sleep. ugh. i can't seem to go rest. sometimes cigarettes fall out of my hands. i dont know if it is a neurological thing or it just happens cause i am tired.