There are things I did, back before someone handed me a brochure describing the kind of crazy that I am that I'm sure I wouldn't be trusted to do again. Things I currently shy away from to such a degree that I cannot envision myself in any position of authority. This includes convenience store clerk. I used to say to anyone who called me that they could trust that every aspect of their intentions regarding their deceased family member would be handled with aplomb. I remember how I would occasionally see someone give a look of uncertainty. I've given that look to many people and when it was directed at me it becomes an entirely different thing. I always responded by redoubling my efforts to be exact, no nonsense. Their uncertainty stemmed from not expecting to see me there. They understood people and the kind of person I am didn't hold positions of authority, at least, they didn't hold them for long.