just went to my first icarus meetup group today.  i had been meaning to go previously, but couldn't make the regular meeting time b/c it's actually usually when i see my therapist.  but since he's out of town, it was the perfect opportunity to connect and stop in a meeting. 

i hadn't been in a group therapy-type situation for a while. and i suppose that's how it felt. because i was immediately flashing back to memories of being in group therapy in institutions.  it's funny, i went to this school for kids like us, kids with "issues," who don't fit in the box - not that most kids fit in the box... it was actually an enjoyable experience overall.  it's just that it may have been counter productive being in a place where so many of my social connections were to fellow unstable teens.

it was there that i began to read literature for the pleasure of reading, for its experience, its enriching metaphors.    it's something i'd like to write more about. 

anyways, the meeting was good. i was worried when i saw that the meeting would be for two hours.  would i make it the whole time? it seemed like a lot of time for group.  but as one person put it in the meeting, it could have gone on for a few hours more and i wouldn't have minded.  

i'm definitely going to attend more meetings before i take a next step of possibly forming a meetup in bklyn.  

thanks for existing icarus .