i keep coming back and last about 15 minutes at this site.  once  or twice a year, and this time i'm not even in crisis mode.

i'm studying and i'm trying to do good work, but i am isolated. so i come here where everyone is doing the work i want to be doing and i can't connect.  how odd is it to feel on the outskirts of the outskirts?

i can't get to freedom center stuff.  i don't want to be in a support group about what hurts all the time. i want to be in an "fucking a aren't we amazing" support group.

i can read about three forum posts before i get totally overwhelmed and wonder how to keep reaching in.   i've been around for years but never seem to walk over the threshold.

there's just SO MUCH STUFF.

aiiigghhghhggg.