I'm recovering from an episode.  My doctor sees these three medications as a stool that supports my stability; it is recommended I stay on these meds until September before we start to reduce them again.

During this last manic episode, complete with psychosis, fears of death and harm, and thoughts of dead singers singing to me again, I kept thinking what can I do differently to prevent future episodes?  I thought of starting therapy again.

It's exhausting to always try and be one step ahead of the illness so that I can prevent it.  Perhaps I should let that one person and his recommendation of cognitive behavioural therapy go; and just accept that this episodic illness will continue to come. And that I only have to recognize it when it does, and take the steps to deal with it at that time.  

I don't want to think I'm completely helpless in the factors that lead to an episode, though.  Perhaps therapy is a good idea.  I can address these mis-hearings I experience during an episode.  I can address these thoughts of fear that I have during an episode.  I can address thoughts of communication with the famous dead that I have during an episode.  Will that help?  I can try.  Who knows?  Maybe I'll never relapse again.  Haha.

Maybe the communication with the dead is about closure.