Three days ago i logged into my computer, set up a trademe account and found this place. Ive not spent much time on my computer over the last year, now i cant stay away from it, i dont do much else. I spent almost $350 and racked up a $200odd in laybys. today and yesterday. My parents asked me to do a drug test thisafternoon, and i have psyc tomorrow. my head is so full it hurts. i dont want to sleep. i dont want to sleep. but my body is breaking out from under me. My parents think i must have been lying to them, doing drugs, not taking my meds, something. couldnt help but smirk when my drug test was clean. A rarity- im looking forward to psyc tomorrow. so i can get angry for once and hopefully not cry. i always cry. but she always thinks shes right. and on this i know im right. Her therapy is not working, her goddamn drugs arnt working. Somethings going to give, and it wont be me *grins with anticipation*

 My birthday soon. banned from my 'bad influence friends' and frowned upon for being happy (okay, stupidly happy and manic ;) i dont know what to expect, i dont want to have a normal day. I dont want to be alone on my birthday, and i definatly dont want to be 'kept in reign'

Sigh