after being off fxr for five months, i'm starting back on a new drug, cymbalta. big dose, 60mg. got so depressed, couldn't get out of bed, couldn't think. no more laughter. physical pain got out of control, made depression worse. depression/physical pain. same thing. eight hours after taking my first dose, i'm hella nauseated. feel like i'm gonna throw up. gotta get my shit together for a gov't appointment tomorrow and i'm so sick feeling i can barely sit to write this. gotta keep at my document gathering for at least another hour. nausea is one of the worst sensations in my body. next to migraine headaches. this feels on the edge of one. blech.

we'll see if i can tolerate this. otherwise, i'm going back on fxr.

also this tingly sensation in the back of my throat.