i don't know.  those guys were jerks.  they made insinuations that i was a firecracker that could go off at any minute.  that girl made comments linked to my past.  i always should have known the truth about her.  their jokes are forced out of a sick desperation.they will use any excuse or foothold to justify their maliciousness.  they are like vessels of decay that want to take me down with them.  they mentally are stuck.  they live in a void and non-applicable, unrealistic(meaning doesn't work or make sense in reality) paradigm.  Love however, that's all that matters.  intimidation tactics.  they more they provoke and bend my free will i guess the freer i must be.  i need to stay active, as subtle, as possible.  i am on the sidelines because being singled out is dangerous.  ignore the mind, it's been ravaged, possibly beyond repair.  trust the heart.  open the mind.  i feel like i'm gonna fall off the chair it's wierd, i feel like my third eye is open.  i'm sober.  i feel like i'm on drugs, but i'm just taking perscription pills.  the "archetypes" aren't real their just perspectives on people that are often askew.  that sucks when someone seems troubled.  but it's okay just growing up, maturing spirits.  i don't know why i need to think this way, but it makes sense to me.  i'm able to function now, i'm happy right now to.  time is an illusionary, limiting concept.