First of all the blogging seems like me. I'm grateful to be able to be part of the community and hope to make at least some contribution. Thank God this place exists, I'm sure that has been said before. Also I intend to hold to the rules and only say what is useful. I've learned at this point that I can tear people down, it's easy when your unhappy and people CAN'T understand why. Well here is a little of the latest;

I went off my meds and had a minor break, of course I have a psychotic break when the wind blows, I'm especially sensitive to caffeine. I just saw a Television spot for abilify, which I am on.....the side effects are pretty extreme. My family would never allow me to go off my meds, but I'm off them now and doing fine. Sometimes I think the only thing stopping me from having a normal life is just to accept that things are ok outside my head. I also think that allot of my illness is boredom. When the mind is wasted on TV and you are as smart as I am it's normal to make a virtual reality appear to deal with the misery.  I guess that's all for now, I'll read some of the other blogs, and feel free to contact and or comment on this. Much love.