i just dont  understand why me...i live in a small town were almost noone knows anything about my problems...i have no friends here to talk ..i mean littlertly no friends...just me and my poodle..i just want to give up..im going to a new doctor and therapist... the doc put me on a new drug and took me off another...

something happened friday that never has...i mean i get ill and unbearable alot but friday i was out of town and something came over me i first i wanted to just hurt someone anyone... i had never felt they way not that bad...

then coming back home i speeded up to about 100 mph and decided to run into the bridge, but at the last moment i thought of my husband that passed away and i calmed down some i made it home.. took my meds and went to sleep