Just got back from the hospital and seeing how well I do without any drugs or medication of any time due to refusal to deal with side effects.

Time: 7:07 PM
3 hours past lithium time to take dose after 5-7 days of Lithium 600mg daily.
No illicit drug or non prescribed medications since ~August 10th 2007
No cigarettes in at least 10 days.
Current mood: A bit paranoid
Recent Problems: Shaky hands, crying daily, desire to hurt self during these spells, no desire to talk with people, (one seizure)
Noticable benefits: Brain feels hazed but clear, ability to think coherantly

11:59 PM
Current mood:
In the moment
Problems since previous entry:
Racing thoughts, worried about my ability to think clearly.

Estatic feeling earlier after fixing my internet.
Currently feel very in the moment, thinking more abstractly and trippier than I have in the past week. Some racing thoughts that are thought of visually and abstractly. I feel closer to God and I hallucinate at will much more quickly. I haven't done any exercise since I've been back and have no plans to work at any point in the near future so the main requirement is the ability to think clearly and study.
There's a desire to do drugs when before there was practically none whatsoever. I do not plan on doing drugs though at any point in the near future. 3 months may be a good goal.