Hello all It has been a long time that I have been on here. I am still out here in some place between space and time. Doc has up my meds and now I take 7 meds. When is it going to stop! Ups downs ins and outs comming fast slow lasting long short thinking thinking thinking have to move no sitting still wait a minute have to sleep stay in bed 12,13,14 hours still tired. When will it stop? Life goes on with me or wit out me. distoried my car driving fast totaled I walked away I am invincable nothing can hurt me I am super man a fource field around you can not hurt me. When will it stop me? Crawl in a hole and die black out there sun hurts need darkness no lite I see the sun and I want to paint it black. When will I stop me????