This is just a regular update on how I'm doing. I am able to write today, so I think I should try to write while I can. I want to start back reading my book again, but ever since coming home I'm feeling in a rut. I saw my grades online for last semester, and they're not bad. I have a 3.0 gpa...which isn't bad. I'm feeling accomplished that I finished the year, or trying to.

I went into town last week with my dad and saw a movie. It was awkward because the movie turned out to be dark and he didn't like it as much as me. Is it weird to see movies with your dad? Am I too old for that? I'm twenty-one, but I enjoy spending time with my dad, we get along great.

I'm starting a new medication: Celexa. It's to deal with depression, focus, and smoking. I hope it can pull me a bit out of the darkness. Maybe I'll feel more motivated. I need to get back into the habit of doing things, even though I'm stuck at home and I don't have a license. I'm going to work on that this summer...getting my license.

I compiled my memoir again, but it's too long to submit to the contest memoirs_and. I shortened it up. I need to feel less blah. The cats are all over me right now. It rained yesterday. I'm losing weight....I'm still over-weight, but at least right now I'm getting closer to normal.

I feel like being creative, but I don't have the energy to use that feeling. I can't seem to get rid of that nagging urge to create something and feel proud of it. But when I sit down to try, I can't function. It's like a creative block. I think I just spent too much energy, and I need to relax and recoop.

I bought some perfume! From this cool online retailer that sells all sorts of perfumes mixed from all these different gothic scents. I also bought my book of poems....to see if it's good to sell.