something so terribly tender about this moment
fragile feelings busting through the heart center
insecurity and pain resurfacing not shoved shoved shoved away concealed by pseudohypomanic moods

wanting to bite paper. tear it to shreads. the vegetarian;s mode of revenge?

finding what others have to say more interesting than what i can put forth. insert doug martch lyrics here.

why cant i cry? havent had a huge cry in so long. been feeling so balanced then last night, i freaked re: long distance justin and wanted to pick a fight and felt all agro and he calmed me down so much and i saw a sweet future...

feel like a second grader or possibly younger. sometimes this is good. sometimes i think i missed the important developmental milestones when becoming an adult.