i sort of miss the old blog section...it seemed closer to other bloggers. i feel in another dimension over here...but this will change over time.

i am mood swinging. it is mild but still swinging rapidly. muy muy rapido. pero es la vida y la vida solamente.

necesito practicar espanol. y necesito aprender mas. quiero a ir a mexico pronto, hay oaxaca pero hay nayarit tambien. me gusta nayarit y los huicholes.

i finally had a shower. needed that. j seems to love me no matter what i do. i can be night gown hagging it for a while, he still is all lovey. i am so in love. i have not been this in love for a long time. it makes me feel vulnerable tho too besides all the happy feelings. i start worrying about inconsequential things. well i start worrying--what if we were together til i was 50...then he would be 36, still younger than me now. that freaks me out a little. but we love each other and there is nothing to be done about it.

i hope we go to cuba. he has a huge family there waiting for him to come back. he went a few years back. i would have to go through mexico or something. my little sister went. she loves it there. now j is going to translate some of the poet buesa for me. i can't quite get it all. i need to learn much still in espanol. i used to know a bit more tho. i get all the tenses mixed up now. i get lost on conditional and subjunctive tenses.

i have learned some slang i will not repeat here for now.

my mood today is all over the place.

bladder and such still hurts. i am going to take cayenne. it is supposed to help neurogenic bladder.