For a long time I have believed the craziest thing. That there is someone special for me to marry. I even said it to person in question. He said he did not know about it. I am frustrated because what I have been believing is not true. It is hurting not helping my mental state. i have just been struggling with it on my own. Well I am posting it here it was confessed by me. I want to be whole and I can live truthfully. I dont have to go around with this mental crutch.