I am a loner. On the surface I tolerate people, but my acceptance of people is low. i don't like 99 per cent of people that I meet. I think most people are without compassion and would screw you without a second thought. I guess the world operates this way, hey it's Darwinism evolution. Whatever.

So since I don't like most people I've never had friends, connections ways of meeting others and finding a mate. So I frequent dating websites, free ones.  It's on these types of forums I can peruse people I'd never meet in real life, never talk to. Usually the results are the same, the normal attractive good looking people, whether they're into shopping and sports or indie music and tattoos they never respond.  I guess in the back of my mind, I really don't want to meet anybody. I'm content by myself but sometimes I'd like that companionship that I've only had a small number of times in my life.  Ah, I'm probably as shallow as those good looking people, unwilling to date at my level accept my state.  Well even if I did the relationship wouldn't last long. I'm too paranoid for it to succeed. Too paranoid and too selfish, always wanting time alone.