i feel sorta shitty. shaky, well i was late on the thyroid med. i missed it in the morning yesterday so i took it last night which may have been too close to today's dose...ugh. i don't know. too many issues. i think my thyroid is still being sluggish and the meds are not right yet. i gotta get to that endocrinologist along with four other specialists. too much. i am going to make a job out of it, and get better, dealing with each issue as i can.

i may go to a naturopath if possible too. i hope to find one who can help me get off meds as much as possible. i don't know if i can get off all. i am almost off them really, they are so low, but i seem to need that low dose of abilifry. the effexor is awful tho and has to go. i need help with the discontinuation syndrome, it is a nightmare. i am really mad at effexor, i am always hypomanic and never can sleep and i just get sicker and sicker. i am so sick of effexor. there went my positive attitude.

i slept a little. i did not get to get hair done yesterday as i needed sleep. i have not had a haircut in a couple years. my hair is down to my waist now. it really needs trimming and i want to blend in these greys with highlights. my bf is too much younger than me for me to be having this grey hair...he called me grandma the other day. well he was teasing but still...