can't believe i haven't written since monday.

i was talking to ben a while ago about how surreal it is to be in such a good space after being at pretty much my lowest point ever less than a week ago.

ashtree & guthrie are here right now, and it's really been awesome to have them around. things just keep feeling better and better with ben, and it's so amazing to be gotten, you know? i say something, and say, "you know? does this make sense?" and he's just smiling and nodding. yes, he does know. and when he doesn't, he says, "no, not really, tell me more."

it's just...really, really good.