Building blocks (experiments) stacked and placed to create a structure.
Vs.
A perfect structure created into which we can explore our subjective truths.

My mental health: A sociological perspective
My life upon coming back from [xxxxx] lacked any kind of structure (work, school), and my passions led me to extreme statements - I didn't have to tone it down to go to work the next day. I scared a member of our community into calling for help from institutions that he trusts to put me back into my place and to exist in a way that allows for others' to recover their sense of safety. What happened in there? I was taught to accept their sense of safety as the one that we should all exist with. I was taught to prioritize their sense of safety over mine. I was told this had nothing to do with my past. This is about me - now. Unfortunately, me now is product of me's before. And if I tell you this has to do with rape. If I tell you this has to do with my past. If I think this has to do with society. Then you better f_g believe it, it has to do with all of these. But more than anything: society and how we treat each other.

I try to take responsibility for my actions and my thoughts. This is my reality. But maybe I'm just crazy.

Sometimes it's about me, sometimes it's not.

When I was manic, spoken word's tone of voice was home. I've learned their language.