I was diagnosed bipolar about a year and a half ago, I'm unmedicated (I watched Lithium turn my father into a robot, and then leave him completely out of it when he decided he didn't want to feel like he was who he was because of chemicals anymore) and I've been able to cope with the ups and downs rather well until recently. About three weeks ago I started seeing and then hearing more than I used to. I wanted to be away from people as much as possible. I wasn't able to sleep for days at a time. And I started to have notions that everyone besides me was in on something where they all knew what I was thinking, that all my actions were being monitored. I went to see a doc, not something i like doing, i generally distrust them, and told her about the stuff that was going down, she didn't really tell me what it was but told me to keep taking the meds i was prescribed (Lithium Carbonate and Risperdal) and to check in with her weekly. Frankly I walked out not feeling any better than I did when I walked in. Has anyone else had things like this happen? BD with psychotic symptoms, lack of emotion, and delusional thoughts, I'm just asking because i was never told BD could cause these things to happen?

Also I'd like to say that I'm so happy I found this site, for a long time I thought I was one of the only people who didn't want to take thier meds, and didn't buy in to the whole spiel that something was "wrong" with me. It's amazing to find out that I'm not alone.