So my arms are covered in cuts again. So many so dark and so red and os oddly beautiful. I was crying and hating. Myself. I was loving too. Not myself.

I'm feeling so much better now. Rapid cycling. Almost ecstatic and no, not because of any substances. I love to think. Think beutiful things. Philosophy.

God? Well it makes sense for the universe to have evolved. Evolution tends towards sekf-modulation and self-regulation. It makes sense that what we call God would be the self-regulating part of an evolved universe. God and the universe are the same. They are the same concept, though it is possible I suppose that God predated this universe, and indeed creates the rules by which each universe succeeds and fails.

Success and failure are always temporary though. Success is measured by how long a form survives, in any evolved thing. All things evolve. Even clouds evolve.