Do you hear that? Of course not, didn't think so, it's all in my head, very loud of course, but not so much so that it might disturb the airs about me. You wouldn't hear this song that keeps spinning these lyrics over and over again - .."back there - that's not me.. - " "i'm not here - this isn't happening".. over and over and over again. You wouldn't hear this voice telling me, goading me, coaxing, pushing me, poking me, prodding me "Fuck this place, there's nothing left for you... you don't fit in.. noboby has an answer for you.. you have no more strength to carry on.. there's nowhere to run, nowhere to hide.. time is short, and there is nothing to do... there is no solution.. just fucking do it already. do it. You cannot hear this madman resolving mathematics, this voice coming to terms with the concepts of multiplying negatives to achieve positives. "A negative times a negative is a postive because the positive is really, in fact, a negative found favorable by a twisted perspective such as bipolar depression. For example, suicidal thought times suicidal action equals death. Death, which as first glance might appear properly as a negative value, is in fact a positive value when as a result of compounded negative factors. Death, in this case is a relief, therefore positive." Did you hear that? I didn't think so. I'm getting drowsy. Perhaps I won't awaken this time.