Normal 0 false false false EN-AU X-NONE X-NONE At this community, I keep coming across all kinds of texts and artwork that just make me feel some kind of peace, knowing that someone else feels the same way and thousands of others browsing before me may have. I watched some videos of the recent G20 riots and it made me cry. In London, Cops pepper spraying Anarchists and Environmentalists who were grouped together shouting “say no to violence” and the cops beat them and pushed them. In America, Anarchists black bloc rioted and had several scuffles with police who were testing for the first time a form of sonic warfare. A tank that emits a high frequency which basically hurts your head/ears a lot. Anyway, watching this kind of stuff upsets me but not in a "I don't want to watch this" way, it makes me want to watch it. I can't ignore it, I am selfish to an ideal not to my self despite the daily focus of "getting by". I am selfish to goals. Someone elses words always helps me to get my message across, at least in my head, but why!? Because it's a message shared.

When will the violence stop? Why won’t it stop? Fair enough, one can say “oh that’s over there, that’s their problem.” I say, Fuck you, they are you and we share the same problems. Australia is just as bad and in some cases worse. I have seen here how police treat Anarchists and protestors and it’s never nice. Wait till there are more Australians turned on and we’ll be seeing the same shit. I am slowly watching it happen. All I need to do is push it along a little bit more to make it happen faster. If I can help, I can make a life out of it and I can get by then I’ll be smiling the whole way.

2 paragraphs of this blog are in a letter to my best friend and mate, who is going through some personally troubling times at the moment and with whom, mutually, may be ending soon. But may also be with for the rest of our lives. After many years and many events we have grown together with, I dont think I could allow it to happen. It seems wrong to me and I do have the ability to stop it from happening. But should I let the waves crash or change it where I can? How do I know when I cant change it anymore? When I dont want to? What if I never want to stop?
People are jealous of us and often inform me of their jealousy in a friendly way. We stick like glue no matter what we say and do to each other. People say "is she your girlfriend?" and I explain "no. We are like best friends. Beyond the titles like that. It feels like it degrades the experience." and its true. As example: I don't want to have children but I would like to give her children out of love. Rather than children being like a selfish thirst one wishes to quench or a way to capitalise, it instead being a physical manifestation of your love and make it the best damn whatever it wants to be! Its all different with her. I want to be a better person.

“In order to insight change, one must become change.” gets said all too often but not enough, and since The Icarus Project has entered my life I have a clarity like no other. And thats just the start, I know it.

There was once a song "Revolution Never Coming" and I didnt care that the revolution was never coming. That was 2 years ago. Now I have a pile of debt, sleep trouble, illness when in routines or time constrained activities for long periods of time and I cannot "get by" doing what I feel passionate about. I want the revolution to start right the fuck now. I want to see the old, traditionalised norms get overswept and replaced with a newer, better world for all life and life systems. But people aren't ready for it. You can tell. They don't have the time to think about these things, too busy trying to get by. We should be working less as we become more technologically advanced, thats the point of technology.

Urgh, I hate and love my race at the same time.

I tell thieves to steal from the rich suburbs. I tell vandals to vandalise religous and government structures. I promote drug use to teenagers and adults and educate them about the truths behind alleged narcotic substances and how to deal with the issues. Am I a criminal? I wish the best upon people and never want to hurt anyone unless prior warning has completely failed. And of course, I take into consideration that between beings, we like to scrap sometimes. It helps in making us stronger and keeping us fit.

I feel as if my best friend dislikes my radical mindset but I don't truely know. Is it so bad?

One must first embrace that they are violent before they can be peaceful.