it's hard to be in love with someone who can't give you that love back. it's even harder to realize you can't give that person everything they want. you can't satisfy every one of their needs. you always seem to come up short or do the wrong thing at the wrong time.  you try and try and you keep trying to impress her, maybe with a song or the way you remember little things she forgets; like her phone charger before heading off to work, or finding her favorite pair of black jeans when she can't. sometimes you forget things on purpose as you leave the house to bring her to work, just so you have an excuse to go back and see her again and not have to miss her for those few minutes...because when you're not with her, you want to be. and when you are you don't want it to stop, because everything seems in its right place, whether it's a bad or good day. but then you realize what you haven't done in the last 3 years, why you weren't there for her from the start. maybe it would've been better (it would have).  she still can't trust you even though she may love you. but she can't forget the last 3 years as much as you want her to. and now you just try and make it up to her but you never will. you can't make up time or else everyone could turn the clock back and start over. 

you love taking care of her when she's sick. or even when she's not sick. maybe you don't have much money at all because you got laid off from work but you still try. you try and get the little things.. the things that are still important.  

you're in love with a girl you were too afraid to love three years ago.