Most days I feel like a left shoe living in a world populated by people who only have right feet.

Not much to say today just feeling kind of like I don't really fit anywhere. Most days I like my solitude but other days I wake up scared of dying old and alone. I can just imagine the headlines : "Spinster Found Dead After Being Gnawed on for a Month by Hungry Dachshunds". The idea is both amusing and disturbing to me.

I suppose I should give anyone who may stumble over this blog some background information so that some of what I say makes at least a tiny bit of sense to someone other than myself.

I have been diagnosed as having many things the primary being S.A.D (seasonal affective disorder) and also bipolar. I also have something wrong with my ovaries/hormones which messes with my moods something awful. I'm still undergoing tests to find out  what the issue with my ovaries is exactly although Polycistic Ovarian Syndrome seems to be the best guess so far.

I'm also 37 years old, eccentric and childless and husbandless by choice. I really have no idea what I want out of life aside from happiness and am trying really hard to figure all of that out.

I'm currently recovering from 2+ years of being ill, unemployed, horrifically depressed and totally isolating myself. I pretty much ran everyone aside from my mother and my dog out of my life and now am trying to rebuild my universe but with a different blue print.