Mayday
Submitted by sundaymorningsoon on Tue, 05/01/2012 - 6:41pmI live in Portland. Almost 5 years separate me from my time of crisis. I think I am doing what I want to with my life, but I question all the time if it is a dead end. Am I going towards "normalcy"? This is something a lot of people want, but I don't think I do. Yet I've worked all these years to pretend at it. I'm not even sure what makes me "different" anymore, if anything, other than a drawn-out event in my past that I still don't fully understand, that feels unintegrated with my life today.
Maybe there is another part of me out there/in here that I do not know how to access yet. Is there a mystical aspect of me that I have dominated with rational thought? Can I ask it to come back? Can I live with it authentically?
Mystical self, trickster self, unpredictable self. Un-self. Where are you?
Where are you?
Come back. Please come back.