Today was a stressful day. I woke up and the first thing I noticed was that my less than a year old lab-chow Juno was acting funny. She didn't seem to be able to move, or walk. Her legs were wobbling, then she wouldn't drink any water. I started to freak out thinking she had been poisoned. I called my dad who was away on a business trip in Chicago, because my mom was out and never turns on her cell phone. It was pretty helpless feeling. She was all shaky and was twitching a bit too. She is a beautiful dog. Well three hours later mom comes home and we rush her to the vet and end up waiting two hours to be told that we'll be put on the end of the list of appointments since we were a 'walk in'. But of course the person behind the counter mumbles to the person that someone had canceled. For some reason this younger woman was being impossible, and yet finally we got her a check up. I felt like the guy vet nurse was kind of annoying, the way he acted frustrated or something. Because the thing was that as soon as we got there she perked up and just bolted into the place healthy as can be! Then since her symptoms were gone there was nothing to be said. She was perfectly healthy and fine. The only thing was a bit of yeast in her ear. So I wonder if she just swallowed something that made her groggy. ARgh, but then we got home and I said something stupid.

My younger brother Josh just turned 16. He said he didn't want a party, and my dad explained that when you get older it's not 'as big of a deal' birthdays...that is. But my dad had that business trip in Chicago for this healthcare software and he left 5:00 am on April 4th my brother's sixteenth birthday. We decided to celebrate on the 3rd. It was ok, but HEY like I didn't know that they hadn't even fricken wrapped his presents. We decided to open presents after birthday cake--mom made it. Mom who has been a nutcase for awhile now, and it looked like kind of bad. Not like...horrible but just kind of thrown together even though she spent all day making it. She bought him a 1,000 dollar bike. He didn't want a bike. He told her that, told my dad this...and so mom threw the rest of his birthday cake away for some reason it was messy later. But anyways, they didn't wrap his presents I guess it was kind of hurried and yeah my dad put a lot of effort into it, but he wanted it to be 'fair' but I don't need things to be fair. I'm 20! So he gets this bike, and he's upset because it's not what he wanted for his 'sweet sixteen' he has NO birthday party. His friends didn't throw him a surprise party like I had thought they would. So today Josh got mad at me because I took a small bite of the last piece of cake, and I really wasn't thinking it was early and I got worried about the dog. My parents fought about the 1,000 dollar bike, and my dad freaked out at her and pushed her on the floor or something crazy because she started yelling and getting in his face. When she starts rambling, she JUST DOESN'T STOP. And that and everything, it's been hard. Plus I hadn't slept last night and smoked seven cigarettes.

Josh punched a hole in the wall, and started crying....before that I said 'Well I'm not the one with the 1,000 dollar bike' because he kept saying he called me out on eating the last piece of his cake. There really hadn't been much left before hand. He said that the fact that they didn't wrap his presents, and that it was his 'Sweet Sixteen'! and he wanted it to be special. Take things in perspective, he didn't even know it cost that much. Then I had to fucking say that! I was supposed to not mention it and then the words just came out. I ended up spending a lot on him for his birthday, I made him a necklace, bought him gouche paints and dad bought tons of other things- silk screen and sticker maker and another present that he didn't even take out because he said it was getting to be 'too much' well it was a little overbearing with all the presents and they hadn't wrapped them. THe worst part was he closed his eyes and dad just handed him the bags with the presents in them. The Big Lots bags! And made a joke about it....damn. And on top of this our crazy neighbor lady started honking at me....