I would like to thank a special someone out there that helped me get more info  with what I call the "curse of the gift".  Francine thanks for all your help and hopefully we can get in touch in the future.  She gave me the heads up on this website so I can under stand why I question every friggin possibility and why spend money like water and why I can not trust anyone in my life.  I truly believe that we are gifted and that what we ail from is not a genetic defect but a genetic mutation in which is evidence of evolution in our modern time.