you know, it has just come to me that maybe it is time that i open up to others who are feeling things that are either the same, or similar to what i am feeling.

oh my gosh right now i am watching an encore revive remium system commercial. literally, it is a commercial for a penis pump! i didnt even know they still had those! probably because it is late night and what not. sorry about the rant. back to what i was originally saying...

i havent felt more a lone in a long time. and MY GOD i cant even type without making mistakes because either my mood or my meds are off. i hate this right now.

so what my post it about. its about the fact that recently i literally have not been able to trust my own senses. i keep hearing things, feeling things, and seeing things that arent there. i know that i get this way when i get psychotic, but right now i am only hypomanic, or at least that is what my doctor tells me.

um, you see i lost my train of thought. but there, i got it back. i feel like i am jumping out of my skin, like the world is vibrating. i dont have anyone to talk to at this hour. well, at any hour.

well good night.

meme