oh hey, yeah i don't give a shit i'd rather drink alone don't wanna fuck anyone anymore feeling really bored and so distracted i'm driving myself crazy feel really mixed up don't wanna laugh wanna throw shit go get  fucked up

i wanna cut at my wrists again dont wanna feel embarressed by it ever again i want to smoke a hundred cigarettes smash a bottle of whiskey on the floor and scream at your window i don't want to feel another thing i want to punch my fist through a fucking wall throw a chair across the room scatter

like to get worse before i get better.

never.