coming off psychiatric medications is a hellish experience
Submitted by dreamer on Sun, 04/20/2008 - 7:32pmi am coming off of medications. hopefully once and for all. everything hurts and i am cold. i don't think my blood is moving around very well in my body. i don't want to have to take any seroquel tonight. but if things get bad again like the other night i might have to. i feel like i'm yoked to this stuff and i want to get away from it. yes it did help me when i needed the help. and maybe i still need the help. but i can't live like this. yoked to a pack of psychiatric medications that change my body and mind so much, i'm not the same person when i'm on all that stuff. i can't sing. that was the real eye opener. i didn't understand before this round that the drugs were going to fuck with my voice. i can't have that happening. not now, not ever. but what happens to me if i lose it again? what happens if reality cracks and crumbles into pieces? what happens if the nightmare comes back? what happens if hell comes back? i am scared. at least i have a supply of these drugs so i can dose myself if i need to. i feel sick. nausea and brain fever. i can't stare at this screen any more right now. have to go.
i did end up taking seroquel
i did end up taking seroquel last night. half dose. tonight i am going to take a quarter dose and see what happens tomorrow. it seems that every other night isn't enough so far. did have some interesting and very symbolic dreams, slept for twelve hours. when i sleep longer i dream more.
at least i was able to clear lithium and ativan with no significant problems. seroquel is the hard one to kick. skullcap, where are you when i need you? i need to develop my relationship with that herb. until now we have been avoiding each other. why? i'm not exactly sure. the crystalline white light says, "obviously it was to happen this way, you needed to learn about how these things are dealt with on all sides. it has to do with your healing and your role as a healer. you need to be able to deal with people who have been through the system, so you are going through the system." interesting. and that particular light always tells me the truth.
Hola
Okay Yay!! Im so glad I found this website. Someone else who freaking hates there addiction to seroquel too. Ive been taking it for like 5 years now and was once up to 600 mg a nite! Seriously, seroquel completely fucks with you. It is an extremely powerful drug that i would never recommend to someone else unless they were in a very very bad place AND had the proper therapy to help get them out of it and bring them back off seroquel. I feel like with my situation, I was never specifically diagnosed with anything and no one really knew what was going on with me so they just doped me on drugs till i was numb and couldnt hear myself anymore, and im young! I was only 16 when i was put on it, I dont want to be addicted to this shit for the rest of my life are you kidding. Anywayz,For a while ive been weening myself off and am now down to 100mg a nite, which has been going pretty good because ive been training my brain healthy thinking patterns with cognative behavioral therapy which i seriously recommend to anyone reading this(I have CBT for dummies, great book) so if anyone cares ill post up how its coming along. But anyways i Just wanted to say hello to all you wonderful creative people out there, which i know you are... Keep on truckin' :) Much luv<3
P.S. Can Anyopne tell me if it is okay to mix skullcap with meds?!? Thanx!!
seroquel withdrawl
Dear Dreamer,
I have taken seroquel for about a year now, and I am trying to stop using it. I feel sick to my stomach, shaky, and feel hot and cold a day after not taking it. I thought I was having hot flashes until I figured out the seroquel connection. I will just have to see what happens next. I saw on Utube there is a a vitamin supplement that is called TrueHope from Canada that is supposed to help minimize bipolar symptoms. I haven't tried it yet, but plan on investigating it. more. I was on zyprexa for about two years and felt like everything was in slow motion. My health insurance ran out and I can no longer afford seroquel--at this time I just want to be off of all drugs. I have Biploar 1 and use art to help with symptoms.
Suzanne Bishop, BFA, MS
Art Therapist