Well I survived the suicidal feelings from last night and feel like I have climbed a mountain or something. It was exhausting and I am not exactly sure what to do. I did find out there are at least 3 people who would really miss me if I died. I think I might make it to the climbing gym today possibly. I've been wanting to join and haven't gotten a chance and don't know all the details, but I have been wanting to for a while. So maybe I will. Or I might just lay here all day, that is another option too. I am exhausted. I think I might take a walk by the lake though. And I will get some coffee. At least while I am still alive I can do that. Sometimes it is just the little things ya know? Then maybe they will make it into big things and all will be alright.