six months on unstable behavior. i want oooooouuuuut.

ouuuuuut.

i'm still in my pjs, at 6 pm! no bra, no fucking teeth brushing. didn't do the dishes, didn't make the bed, didn't do the laundry. when my partner comes home, it will be very embarassing.... i'm trying to get out of the house before he gets here, but i can't get off the couch. i'm trying to work on my attitude this week. i'm working on my attitude this week, but i really just need a therapist to talk to, someone impartial to talk to. someone to taaaaallllk to.

ahhh.

cry cry cry, whine whine whine, cry cry cry.... i fucking suck. really not a big fan of me right now. not at all. i think that's why i sleep so much. i lose my ego in sleep, existence can be without the "me".

 """""and then i see a darkness

did you know how much i love you

it's the hope that somehow you you

can save me from this darkness.""""