It's Too Easy
Submitted by sweetmadness on Thu, 04/02/2009 - 12:49pm
It should be illegal
I'm sitting here
I can just let them
medicate me
after my 'history'
3 months of sleep deprivation
& risperdal
& thorazine sedation
injection
repeated
rinse
repeat
it shoud be illegal
not to mention
that it is wrong
I remember I remember I remember I forget
I once had reached the center
then I had to give up my rights
I was fifteen &
How old were you?
I wasn't raped, I told her
I wasn't raped
For struggling to say it out loud
'but sweetheart' it helps you
helped you
helps you
helped you
what the fuck?
and then the men in white
are all I wait for
day in and day out
could be the men in black
what do I care
they're just men.
She'd kneel by my bed
and it was 'to help me sleep'
they lied to my parents
mental molestation
I imagined that my arm was numb
after my nerves were pinched
I lay on my side in the Quiet Room
ironic
I wouldn't reply
respond to what I denied
reply
not that my rights were there
not when you're fifteen
and your parents are concerned
that you are psychotic
they left me there all day
every day
It took 9 weeks
to 'fix me'
I was fifteen
when they brought me in
catatonic
it wasn't stress
I didn't sleep
the sedation
kept me
they yelled
yelled at me
every minute
It was torture
but here you go
'something to hide;
to depend on'
inhale exhale
inhale
exhale,
stare into the little camera
change locations
move away
never press charges
don't fear the reaper
I hate people like them.
Am i homicidal?
You tell me.
while I choke the last
bit of freedom from your
airways
and I heard voices
when I turned 18
after I learned
they could no longer TREAT me
like a child.
18....and I stoppped
caring
who I was
after you
labeled me
paranoid
bipolar
undifferentiated
schizophrenic.
It was too hard to fight
now it's too easy
to let them win.
But you won doctor
So don't look pissed when I cry
in your office.
Mock-Up