There's no test. No there's no freakin test that can tell a person whether or not they have the innate ability to 'know' things. That's because knowledge is earned, it doesn't happen sporadically. And who do such tests benefit? A true psychic will fail the zener card test for many reasons. God is one of them, another reason is that proof is a threat to metaphysics. Proof of such phenomena will put the spirit in a lab. We already pay 'psychics' to tell us what is happening in our daily lives, who we'll marry in the futuer etc. There are many prizes and payoffs for someone who can prove a talent that is unusual. There's the so called contest for anyone who can prove they are telekinetic when under scientific observation. They win $1,000,000. So far no one has won the prize.

Maybe there is an innate reason why the human race is keeping this a mystery. Then again, who wants to be called crazy for knowing things. I don't mean like an inkling, I mean knowing a truth that no one else knows. Perhaps there is a real conspiracy against the human mind, against people who do know things...things that matter not like things that would serve their own selfish causes. If you knew that on September 11th 2001 there was going to be an attack on the twin towers and you knew who was responsible--just whose lives would that put in jeapordy. What if the whole thing had been a fraud. How many people would have to be called 'crazy' by the government before the truth would become silent.

I do not claim any conspiracies. I really don't know if there was any coverup about 9/11. But I do know that if anyone with the keen ability to predict the future is a 'crazy' person, then we ALL are crazy. Because everyone has that ability, unless of course you truly wanted nothing to do with it. Humans are supposed to have free-will. I believe that even beyond the innate ability to choose our actions, our souls are free as well. Can one bar the soul? Can we imprison the human soul? Have we tried yet? Can we prove it? Who knows, but that is precisely the kind of thing that science is always looking for- proof. But look beyond proof. Look beyond the observable, and you will see a realm much wider than you could fathom with your consciousness.

Of course there are real life reasons for things that occur. So we can't discount that there are causes and effects of the chemicals we use every day. We know that when we are inhaling the toxic fumes from a cigarette we are doing it to acheive some sort of 'state' if you will. A sort of realm in which we can escape from every day life. Drugs can do much to enhance our life and change the way we perceive ourselves. I'm not one to say 'Drugs are the devil' and I'm not against using them responsibly. Everyone's trying hopelessly to fill that void.When you've filled that void--there's no need for a drug anyways. There's no need, it really is only supplementing the ability. After awhile when we become tolerant of drugs- we need only mimick their behavior to feel the same effects. The truth is....there's nothing addicting about the drugs--it's all within the makeup of the human brain alongside our behavioral attitudes.

Alcohol affects many people differently and it also depends on the situation. If I'm around lots of people drinking I feel excellent. If I am at home and having a glass of wine with my meal it just makes me tired and mellow. It's all about the way we handle our experiences. People who have all their lives tried to 'run away' from their problems with drugs they develop a disease called 'addiction' and that disease is not in the chemical of the drug, the drug is really just causing an effect. No one can get addicted to an effect. We only tell ourselves this. In this case- with cigarettes I believe most forms are a psychological addiction as with other drugs like marijuana and lsd. I have not accounted for others like heroin or drugs which cause real withdrawel if you don't take them.

The power of the human mind is great! But we are giving it away. We are giving in to fears, frustrations, hopelessness. And letting others take control of our lives. We seek the happy pill, but the happy pill...the quick fix is really something that only we can supplement. A placebo can sometimes be much more effective than any anti-depressent because of the TRUST we give ourselves, the confidence we have in being taken care of, the amount of frustration we've owed ourselves in getting to this point of seeking help. And yet, it really was merely a psychological cause in the first place- we're hurt, we're seeking comfort, we need to be consoled. We need love but we can't get it from anywhere. Can you truly supplement LOVE with a pill? Can you replace it? I didn't think so. I know people are forgetting what it means to be real in this world, what is means to truly love someone...because we're so self-centered.

I want more, I know there's more. More more More! More money, more power, more authority, more land, more people, more world, more logic. We have forgotten that there really isn't any MORE to it than this- it's simple. It's really truly simple. John Lennon sang about it. Martin Luther King Jr. spoke out about it. But what are YOU doing about it? What am I doing about it? And I haven't gone into my personal experiences because I don't want to bore anyone with something they won't understand. We all have our own path to clear, but not all of us are walking alone. Sometimes I feel like I do know things. Sometimes I feel in sync with the world and I feel there's nothing wrong with that. sometimes it gets so unbearable because I start tuning into things and I can't tune out. Like a car accident, we can't look away out of shock and concern. I'm not paranoid, I don't see things...i hear things--perhaps because I listen. I listen to myself, I listen to my elders, i listen to the rain.

For awhile I had to escape, i had to tune everything out but now I am feeling more like it is my responsibility to interpret what I'm hearing...not just let it go through me or find its way into my head without me having a say. What's coming...can we do anything to change what is to come? I was wrong in many instances. No one dropped a bomb onto the field next to my house, there was no barcode on my forhead, I was not 'sold' to a corporation because I know things that others don't, I was simply misunderstood. There was no one after me...but there was something there--I heard something that no one heard-something that no one could know but me...and I can't prove it. I don't want to prove it...it's still the truth.