the same traits that make people like me predisposed to travel through dimensions are the ones that get us tormented by voices and ghosts and locked up and stuck on haldol. but i think i'm up for the challenge.

Sky was the first healer person I ever worked with who had the ability to give me practical frameworks for thinking about the complex things I struggle with that the mainstream psych world only knows to call "psychosis." By acknowledging that I had "inner voices" that not only talk to me but talk amongst each other, she allowed a huge and incredibly helpful awareness shift to take place in my consciousness. She introduced me to a whole new fascinating vocabulary full of things like "tracking and journeying through dimensions", "traveling between worlds safely" and the performing of "soul retrievals."

has anyone ever seen the movie videodrome? if it's not my favorite movie, it's probably the one that has had the most long term effect on my subconscious. it's about this cable tv station that ends up broadcasting signals which make tumors grow in people's brains and controls their thoughts. corporate mind control takeover, sexy 'blondie' era debbie harry s/m scenes, televisions talking directly to you and telling you to kill people, pretty grim and lovely and fascinating.

Building a map for myself in the unconscious realm. clues and symbols to look out for, markers in the mirrored hallways. all those characters running around in there. the consentual reality but what does that mean? who's paying for it to stay like this? shapeshifting magicians or the people that hire their services?

There are so many hidden contradictory and melding layers inside my brain, and I get so caught up in the hectic immediacy of my life (like a shell I build around myself out of ocean salt and little bits of sand and sea glass) that I forget I'm constructing this swirling, fractalized ironically self-similar life around myself which just mimmics the life forces flowing around me and inevitably gets exponentially more interesting at the lithium carbonate in my blood dips below .5.

In some ways what you hold in your hands is my perspective as one of the founding members working with a young radical organization in its first year on the ground in New York City. I think it's an important document for that reason because it gives a sense of what we were doing at the beginning and the spirit in which we were doing it. Icarus is rapidly (and thankfully) branching out way beyond its founders into new directions and I think it's important to record the history as it happens.