I've had this general feeling of discomfort for a few days now and I don't like it at all. But I'm going to a shrink appointment very soon. And then a psychiatrist appointment, which is less helpful, but still a good check-in. I have a date tonight. And I'm not excited. I'm not really scared. I'm just not excited. But I guess that's a good outcome, right? I mean, we'll see how it goes. It could be good, or it could be nothing. But either way I get to have some good japanese food. And tomorrow I'll get to go into group and say "I survived a whole date". But I'm just not excited about it. But I've got a some time to talk to my shrink about it. Ugh.

I just don't like how I'm feeling right now. At all. Even after a shower and shaving and cutting my nails. I just want to whine and throw a bit of a fit. Ahhhhhhhh. Seriously. What the fuck am I doing? I want to throw a fit and I can't. There's no one to hear me and give me an end time. I guess I can give that to myself, but I feel like I need to just give up on it and go out into the world.

Goodbye, for now. I may end up doing some more whining here over the course of the day via my phone.