Fuckity fuck. I hate accidentally losing what I write here. Basically I got drunk and messaged the guy and somewhat overstated how much I wanted to be with him because I was really horny and fantasizing. And then I guess he thought I wanted to date him or he doesn't want to fuck me as much as I thought I wanted to fuck him. But I need to put a check on all of this, maybe with a skype conversation.

Am I doing worse than usual? I know it's so fucking hard for me to tell. I'm so tired.