I'm so tired... so tired that everything is blurring together. The lines have gone all fuzzy, the lights are all too bright and all the sounds are strangely scratchy. I've been at the point of exhaustion for days and days, now that the Clonazepam is gone. Can't sleep unless I feel like I'm about to pass out. So tired that all I think about now is sleeping, I daydream about falling asleep. This is so unfair, to have to feel so wrong and unnatural, always dealing with some chemical too high or some chemical too low. I know I need meds to live, but it's just sad to feel like nothing but chemicals. At least I don't feel like my blood is liquid lithium anymore, though.

Went and saw The Queen today. Great movie. If only it wasn't so fuzzy around the edges.