eli lilly, effexor and non-compliance

Submitted by popejoan2 on Sun, 12/31/2006 - 7:49am

eli lilly sucks. what a great statement will made tho. just so right on. i am really upset tho. i am very angry i am stuck on some medication for now....i remember passing out on zyprexa from hypoglycemia. it did indeed seem to get worse on it. i still have it but it really did seem to worsen then and hypoglycemia can reverse into diabetes. i have a sore on my foot that won't heal. so i worry, it is in my family too.

i don't trust that the fry, the abilify is much better. for some it is. but for me i still feel hormonal weirdness as well. yeah these affect hormones somehow i thnk too. i can't stand how the doctors just tell you to eat right and exercise, when the meds just make you gain no matter what. no matter if i eat like a bird most the time (well except pms mostly).

i forget who makes effexor. i am so mad at effexor. i am stuck on it! it is a nightmare to get off it! it might as well be crystal meth!!!

i am figuring out, ssri's helped set off my bipolarism in my 30s. i probably was already, but they made it worse and they also caused psychosis when withdrawing from them, at times when i knew i did not need them as i was too up...so i did the intutive thing and did go slowly off...and bam! universe turned inside out. i went on a trip for months. i could not snap out of it. so then i went to the hospital where they messed me up even more with mega overdose of meds. they always overdose in the hospital and then it takes months and months just to recover from that alone. so many do not and can not speak up when their meds are toxic. there are times i have not been able to too. like it may be difficult next appointment to talk about my human rights, because this clinic is busy labeling me "non-compliant"

i was non-compliant when i went to the hospital supposedly. that is, when i went off ssris in an intuitive self-preserving fashion. this non compliant word has got to go. it reminds me of corporate speak. proactive. etc.

well it is like the borg too.

once they label me non-compliant they will hardly hear what i have to say. they will see everything as an attempt to sabatoge the treatment process. grrrrr. they are all so fucked up.

Non-compliant - ooh ,such a dirty word , isn't it ?

Submitted by thememoryartist on Tue, 01/02/2007 - 2:31pm.

But all that it means is that you are not doing what they want you to do with your body.

I think we all know what we really need at some level , but once you've been labeled mentally ill - what you want is no longer considered a legitimate desire , and what you think is always a symptom if it doesn't match what the doctor or nurse or therapist believes. We get hooked into believing that all these drugs are for our own good and that we need them, no matter what the effects are on our bodies and minds. But we need to listen to our bodies and trust our intuition. Things aren't always what the professionals decide to label them as - and then suddenly we are not who we thought we were. The Borg ? Yes. Don't let them assimilate you . ;0)

yes we are like a tribe

Submitted by popejoan2 on Wed, 01/03/2007 - 11:26pm.

yes we are like a tribe sometimes in an assimilation process i think. it is tragic that way sometimes. but we are fighters too. we have a culture it seems. we have roots. we belong here as we are. we have an evolutionary purpose perhaps. i think so. anyways, thanks for reading. i really love your blog. i will be commenting soon. peace, nancy

Much love, Nancy.and you

Submitted by Beau on Sun, 12/31/2006 - 9:15am.

Much love, Nancy.

and you know? in a way,
theyaretheborg...
bunchofpropagandababiesrunningclinicsandhospitals (I'll post a poem I wrote a while back, about "propaganda babies", up in the poems section).

Someofthegreatestartists/thinkers/peopleinhistorywere/arebipolar.
So, those that would label your beautifully unique character as "non-compliant" because you react in ways that don't fit perfectly into their little world of charts and
dosages, are just plain stupid people.
Ignorant of their own "quiet desparation".
(you know this of course... I'm preaching to the choir...)

IthurtsmeeverytimeIreadoneoftheseposts,becauseIhatetohear
aboutassholes. Butyouhelpmetorememberwhatpeopleshouldstandfor,andwhyright
isright,andwrongiswrong.

Again, my heart to you.

~Beau