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Submitted by placebo.nocebo on Sun, 02/08/2009 - 12:21amSo here we are, typing contently away in an empty house fueled on orange pekoe and savoring silence. We usually live in a city about five hundred kilometers, or three hundred miles away from here. Our parents live in this smallish, cold, landlocked, and unappealing city while we live on an island surrounded by beautiful trees with a castle up the street and friends that genuinely care.
Here, we feel like we melt into a mess of complacency and melancholy.
Everything seems to have been divided by Asher's need to argue and make himself heard and multiplied by Janelle's arrangement with Cyran to keep everything under wraps until the timing is right. Lorraine is a stable and helping hand to Janelle, while Kaare slides from childhood to pre-pubescent indeterminately. Brodie makes choices for us while we struggle to keep everyone working together as a team, because that's how we try and view ourselves as.
It's an attempt at interpersonal relationships to an extreme experienced by few, and understood by fewer still. Misunderstood exponentially by mental health professionals and the public, to be clearer. We don't get how we came to be this way, but we've given up expending energy into "fixing" the situation, and are now focusing on raising our standards of living without extreme measures like anti-psychotics. We still take a daily small dose of citalopram for panic attacks, but really, what a change from daily seroquel, sertraline, and risperidone.
We'll take quality of life over normal behavior any day, thanks.
Nice Entry!
I would love to have a support system or group of people who shared this commonality, and would like to get off the meds. I am currently not even able to take my meds as my body has begun literally rejecting them. Anti-psychotic are a 'quick fix' to a situation and scenerio. IMO, the mind is mostly in charge of what goes on behaviorwise and it is not solely a chemical thing but balance is important. Like, for instance my puppy loves to use her chew toy and make it squeek non-stop. Is that normal animal behavior? I dunno, she likes the sound of it it seems...she is probably just a smart puppy. Coming terms with oneself and maturing is the best medicine. Good luck with the new quality of life, and I wish you all the best.
SweetMadness
Coming to terms with the
Coming to terms with the fact that we, as humans, don't know everything about the brain and that my reality may not be the same as everyone else's was the most positive thing I have done for myself in the past few years.
Thank you for the comment, and take care.
-Janelle
Gee, I wish we had one of them doomsday machines.